First Day Gone

What a sad yet happy day it has been!

My darling Bubu-Sama has flow off yesterday and I was crying like a baby! I know I'll see him again but yet it's just so sad. 364 days to go and counting!

My best friends Felicia and Joanna came over to accompany me in the afternoon but soon after they arrived, I fell asleep. (Didn't sleep the night before). They are so nice to me. Even bought me duck rice to eat. Hardly eaten anything, wasn't in the mood to.

I know it's not like he's dying but I miss him so much. He's probably with his aunt in Guangzhou right now. But I feel so empty and lonely without him. Being with him for the past 1 month was one of the happiest and wonderful period in my life. Everyday I woke up smiling and thinking what should I do for him today. I felt so blessed. I had my family, my darling boyfriend and all the wonderful friends and new ones from school. What's there not to like about everyday?

But now he's gone.. I know not for good but somehow you cannot stop yourself from wanting to be with him again. I miss his touch, his hug, his lovely smile, his beautiful eyes and his warmth. His hands are the warmest I ever touched. I like to put my fingers between his and feel so blessed each him I sense his warmth.

I know I am silly, but I cannot help it. He might not be my image of perfection but his imperfections are what draws me closer to him. He makes me laugh so much my tummy hurts. He cares so much for me that I feel guilty for throwing a tantrum on him whenever I do not get what I want. I am so selfish. =(

Well, looking forward for him to find a phone and call me again! and as well as day 2 without my dearest.

It's depressing, really. Whenever I finish my class, there's no one there waiting for me anymore. No one at home waiting on the computer chair, no one at the door kissing me on the cheek. Sigh- I am too emo.

I miss you my Bubu (loves)